Current mood:	awake
Current music:	|| " Shout " - Tears For Fears. ||

-| nice night. ;x |-
well, let's see. yesterday, i started off waking up around 1. since we don't have school i kinda got into the habit of doing that now. i was lazy, and moped around with my mom for a while. then she wanted chinese, so i drove to go pick it up. weee, driving. still no word from derrick. idk... i took a shower, did my hair and all that good shit. i was supposed to go out with patrick last night, but then around 5 or so ... derrick decided to tell me he wasn't going to the party for chappy. so, basically i had no choice. i really didn't want to go out with patrick, cuz we would have been fighting the whole time ... or he would have tried something. so, i told derrick to come over. he took a shower and came over. when he walked into my room, he threw a pack of cigarettes at me. =D that's SO what i needed. i was fien`in hardc0re. i told him to give me a fucking hug. and he did. oh yeah. he held me for a while, which felt good. i sat on his lap while he watched Cops, and layed my head on his shoulder. i just didn't want to let go. mattie's still at his grandma's, so basically it was a night to ourselves. kevin kortney came over to fix out plumping. i haven't seen him since i was MAD young. he remembered me as a little " cute kid ". he didn't know i grew up. he made me help him and get all dirty. ;[ then derrick cleaned up his mess, and cleaned out my mom's whole cabnit like a retard. it was already 9, and i was hungry. we went to mannions. which is a very, very, very irish resturant. it was nice though. they had a band ... well, one guy playing music. he played some country. matt would have died if he went there. not only was it irish, but COUNTRY! i made sure i called him and left a voicemail. so, we had good food. a song came on called "Earth Angel." lmao! derrick took his fork and started singing... sooo loud. i was so going to leave. i couldn't eat cuz i was laughing. it was cute though. i'm just going to make sure i never ask him to serenade me ever in my lifetime. ;D then my song came on. "My Brown Eyes Girl." we sang it, and left. we came home, and chilled with my mom. they were singing Earth Angel together, which was totally gay. i'm glad they're talking again. so, later that night ... derrick put me in bed. made sure i was warm and layed with me for a while. i fell asleep, but woke up around 2 or so, cuz of SOME REASONS. =D it's all good. fell back asleep to his little ... er ... whispers in my ear. then i guess he left.

but, now i'm up. it's 1:22. woke up like 20 minutes ago. i'ma reheat my chinese! w3rd, and wait for mattie to come home. we need to go to the mall today. derrick has to pick out a hat, and i have to spend a 100 dollars. fuck yes. i'm out.

[beautiful] i guess that's how you really feel. the whole ... 'can't live without'. maybe i shouldn't care. but, it's hard. eh, shit. idk.