-| my hockey player. |-
yeah, so. last night. derrick didn't come over until like ... 6:45. he brought mattie, and mike. [pat's little brother who hangs out with me alot.] lol. so, we all went to pick up some kids, and went to Extremes, so i could watch derrick play hockey. it was fucking cold in there. so, yeah. there were do0ds in there, and they were lookin` at me and shiz. one was hot. very guido though, and thuggish. not my type. but, when i saw my baby out there skating... my heart just dropped. it's very odd. it's been almost 8 months, and still i'm so very much inlove with him. each and every day, it's just like yesterday we fell inlove. i never felt this before, and it's scary. just a little. but, i love it, because i love him more than life itself. i would never lie about that. i just find it pathetic that i love him this much. i just feel like... how can i devote myself to just one person? ... and make this one person my whole entire world? i just want it in return. i don't have that. i just want someone to SHOW how much i mean to them... i don't know. again... i'm asking for too much. so, yeah. derrick dropped me and mike off, cuz Pat was at my house. i hung with pat for a while. he kept biting me, and trying to get me to do stuff with him. but, i didn't. then derrick showed up, after a rather long shower. pat and mike left. derrick said he couldn't stay. oh well. he gave me some lame excuse. an excuse not even my mother, or matt believed. the kids 22, his parents can't make him do shit. ANYWH0. he left me sometime in the middle of the night. i didn't care.

so, now i'm waiting for him. HMM, WHAT ELSE DO I DO? all i do is wait for him. we're gonna go to the mall, and go food shopping. yay... maybe he'll stay tonight. or i'll get some LAME excuse, again. eeehh, whatever.

oh yeah. my mattie boy is going out with Juliana. ;D YAY. <3