Current mood:	uncomfortable
Current music:	|| "I" - Taproot. ||

-| and when i take him down. |-
yeah. haven't written in a while. haven't been in the mood. well, IDK. i had no school thursday because it snowed. basically i spent the day with derrick. then had school friday, which was gay. derrick came over after school, then we went and got mattie and went to the mall. whooo. basically i did the same thing all weekend. derrick slept over every night, which was good. no, no. not good. great. it felt like we were married already, falling asleep in each others arms, then waking up just to breathe each other in. then we made breakfast! lol. it was nice. yeah, so ... we got mattie saturday night and went to the mall. bleh bleh bleh. i'm not in the mood to typing at all. so, derrick stayed over till monday and fell asleep with me last night, until he left. i don't remember. i was passed out. so, today was a kinda weird day. everything was ok, when this feeling hit me... hard. i mean ... it just hit me like a bag of bricks. i don't really want to talk about it. i came home, layed in bed. derrick came over, and i couldn't stop crying. but, he was there for me. i just couldn't stop. i still can't. i can't even think right, it's just that stupid ass fucking lost feeling again. i know i love him, and he loves me... and he's here all the time. but, i still feel alone. idk. i'm 0ut.