Current mood:	calm
Current music:	|| "Figured You Out" - Nickelback. ||

my smiles are fake.
Saturday - woke up. didn't take to anyone. i couldn't even think. all i wanted was derrick at that time, but i couldn't have him. i didn't know what to think, if we were still together or not. the things that were said made me think different. i mopped around all afternoon, and finally had to have mattie come over. i couldn't be alone. we hung out, and i basically smoked like a fien`. then phil came over. he called derrick, after me asking him if he said some shit about me, which he denied... but, i know he was lying. derrick just hung up on him. atleast i knew he was alive, even though we didn't talk. so, later that night. me, phil, and mattie decided we weren't going to sit around... so we went to the mall to go see a movie, but the line was toooo long. meanwhile, my cell phone goes off... and it's the siren tone i have for derrick. i got all nervous, and i didn't know what to say. he asked me how i was, and i said fine. but, when i asked him he said not doing so good. i didn't know what to say. all i wanted to say was i love him, and that i wanted to come home to him right then and there... but, i couldn't. i just remembered what he did to me, and felt like he deserved to feel like shit. he figured i was at the mall with phil and matt. i dunno if he liked that much, but ... oh well. we said goodbye. no "iloveyou" or anything. then i called him to let him know i was coming home... and he did what i love.
[Derrick] - "Hey!"
[Brooke] - "... hey. "
[Derrick] - "I love you, Brookelyn."
[Brooke] - "...and, I love you Derrick."
... ahh, I love when he says it like that. so, he came over. we sat outside and held eachother for a little. it felt good to breath him in again. he kissed me, hard ... that felt good too. we hung out, he brushed my mom's hair which was cute. talked to the beautiful amy on the phone. must say she is one sexy mother fucker. loved talking to her for an hour or so. can't wait to do it again. he stayed until i fell asleep again... =D

Sunday - got woken up by my mom. i was having a hot ass lesbian action dream. [ahem, amy.] ahah. we to eat, then to tan. did 23 minutes, and it made me fell crispy. mmm, chicken. so, yeah... went shopping and got picture frames. eeeeeeehhhhhhhh i looooovvvveee picture frames with a passion!!!!!!! maybe i'm just crazy. i think that's it. came home, showered, then my baby came over and we got McDonalds. yummy... i didn't eat much though. he wanted to be alone, but mattie showed up. he felt weird, and acted weird all night. he stayed in the dining room, and was ... ehhh, weird. IDK. so, yeah. he left. me and derrick went upstairs to watch Bruce Almighty, then Dracula 2000. i get freaky when i watch vampire movies, so yeah ... we all know what happened. mmmm. ;D

Monday - went to school. everyone commented on my hair and how straight it is, and how it's lighter. they all like it, and my tan. my friend jon insists i became spanish over the break. psssht. yeah, riiiight. anywho. it was nice to be with lisa again. i missed smudge, and i got to see him. =D but, now ... i'ma eat something... then hopefully chill with my baby-hunny-sweetie-pie! ... eh, that was lame. i'm 0ut.





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hey, you. yes, you. you are too beautiful. you know it, woman.